Siang tadi, gw baru aja melepas kepergian salah satu teman terbaik gw di Madison. Dia, yang lulus Mei ini, bakalan balik ke Indonesia for good, alias bakalan nggak stay di US karena musti kerja bareng bokapnya di Kalimantan. Bagi seseorang yang setengah phlegmatic kaya gw, kepergian dia bagi gw itu merupakan suatu kehilangan yang besar banget lantaran gw salah satu orang yang gw bener-bener bisa comfortable untuk mengeluarkan semua uneg2 gw, dia juga salah satu orang yang bener2 gw bisa keluarin semua pikiran gw tanpa gw ngrasa "burden". Dan sekarang dia udah nggak ada, so bakalan nggak ada orang yang jadi tempat sampah gw.

This is just to express my sadness of his leaving and my hard-work attempt to convince myself that surely I can surpass this. Everyone is coming in and out in Madison and we have to face that. New people is coming in and filling up our day with a new day, Old people is coming out and all we need to do is letting them go because they themselves have to move on.

Do you hear me
I'm talking to you
across the water
across the deep blue ocean
under the open sky
oh my and baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dream
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
you make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

So many good news happen today that have made my day brighter and sunnier. The most exciting one is, of course, "lulusnya" one of my best friend in here, Sofian. Hahahaha,, congratulations! Congratulation  a lot! YOu finally made it!! See, you can do it! Now, you got your master degree!! What a lovely! After almost two years studying in here, you finally got what you want. Just lovely!! Seeing him happy coz he got his master degree. Now, his name would change into Mr. Sofian H, M.Sc, hahahaha,, too bad that he's going back to Indonesia for good to help his parents. Well, that's not too bad actually! It's just that he has to leave early right after the commencement since his sister is getting married! What! I'm gonna finish my final by tomorrow! And after that, I have to finish all the work with the banquet! I dunno if I can hang out with you until all the things finish! But, anyway,, That was just a really good news, extremely good news. Once again! Congratulation!

Let's change the topic. Since when I started watching Korean drama?! I don't even remember, I guess it was like 3 or 4 years ago. What really bother (not actually bother) my mind is since when I like korean guys more than I like my own heritage. No!!!! GAWAT! They aren't as easy to get approached as any other Indonesian guys. TOLONG! Well, but, I  d o n ' t    r e a l l y   m i n d, actually! But, I was just extremely curious. "Bule" is no longer interesting to me, even though tonsss of my friends said that there are tonnss of handsome guy in here, I don't care! Hahahaha,,
I notice this: In my physics class, there is this one guy I knew from last semester, coz we're taking the same class also. He seems soooo cool and soooo smart, and what the worst thing is I think I like him. However, even if we're taking the same class, I don't even know his name! WHAT! It's just today that I figured out that he's living in the same place with my friends. NOL. that's the only information that I knew.

I also notice this: So, in my CS class, this is also another cool and smart-looking korean guys that I also feel curious about! And this is even worst! I will just and had just met him during 3 times of the review section of the CS. Because, because, we are in different section and lecture!
Oh! Help me out!!!

The story is countless, but the thing is I just so wonder why I'm fond of korean guys. Is watching a lot of korean drama change my perspective about guys?! Is listening to korean song make me more interested in korean people? Dunno,,,, GAWAT!

GAWAT Lagi! In another 30 minutes I'm gonna have exam yet I'm writing something! Well, the news is just too bad to be missed!

Here are how I describe myself: the so-called nerd, yes; the so-called hard-study student, yes; the so-called engineer, yes; and the so-called people who never have social life and prefer to stay most of the time in the library, ABSOLUTELY! Hahahahahaha,,

So, this semester, I spent most of my time in the library, or alternatively in the study room down my dorm. Well, I can't say much! With all the homework, exam, assignments between my work and my organization, I really have to be friends with the chairs and the table. I hate it, before! But now, I love it! Why? Because, lately, library has been one of my best social hang out to meet with my friends or even to make friends with new people. Especially since it's final week right now, and everyone spend their time in the library studying!

My opinion change because of this one little story. So, I knew him (relax, he has a gf, already!), not quiet though, because it was always happen that we had the same section and class at first and then he just changed it and bye! But, every time we met, we always said hi and asked "basa-basi" questions. But, since lately, we've been studying in the library together, we start to talk and share our "pathetic" experience about class, exams, and everything! In other word, I know him more right now! OR IN OTHER WORD, I have one more friend! that's what I like the most (I didn't write it because I like him, swear! believe me). I never thought that I would be friend with him until we study together in the library. I thought he would never speak to me (obviously except hi and how are you doing?). I thought I will never be able to make friends in the library. Hahahahaha,, one silver lining!

That is just my first story. My second story? Well,, As I told you before, library has been my greatest social hang out with other friends. Because if I'm studying in my room or in my the study room downstairs, I would never be able to know more about my other Indonesian friend, or worst case, I would never be able to make friends. Studying in my room is so boring that I could fall asleep anytime, and so is studying downstairs. I would always meet my other "bule" friends who don't even want to speak with me since they don't really know me well and I don't either. But, since I and my other indonesian friends are studying in our lovely wendt library, well, we start to know each other better right now. What if I didn't come to the library, I guess I would never know si A, si F, si I, si I versi endut, si M, si K, si S, and many more that I couldn't mention one by one. Hm, what a lovely until si A suggested me to create a group called "Wendt Library Lovers" and take picture of Indonesian people who like to study there. Hahahahaha,,, one silver lining!

And I guess I'm tired to tell you the other stories coz they are as well as those two my stories, you'll get bored if I wrote that down everything!

So,, Ya!
I'm a Library Lovers and I never regret that!

So, it's almost the end of the spring semester, and in other word, I'm almost done with my freshman year. So many good things happen, so many lessons I got. Now I start wrapping up those things one by one. Start with the thing I remembered the most.

Semester ini, kelas favorite gw adalah kelas computer science gw: CS 302, meskipun dari nilainya sama sekali tidak mencerminkan bahwa kelas ini adalah kelas favorite gw. Hal-hal yang paling gw senangi dan "junjung tinggi" dari kelas ini adalah fakta bahwa gw mulai ketemu dengan teman-teman yang bakalan satu major, yang mana penting bagi gw, karena gw akhirnya bertemu dengan orang-orang yang bakalan satu nasib dengan gw (sedihnya menjadi seorang EE, yang mana nggak ada satupun EE yang tahunnya sama dengan gw, unlike that Chem.E). Selain itu, di kelas ini, gw juga ketemu dengan other TA's yang bener-bener super keren dan super pintar, yang bener-bener telah nge-bantu gw untuk melewati kelas CS ini dengan sekuat tenaga, yang telah membantu gw dalam menyelesaikan project-projectnya yang gila-gila. Tapi yang benar-benar keingat dari gw adalah ketika kita telah selesai dengan kelas CS ini dan salah satu dari TA gw menasihati gw that I should be partnered by for my projects. And here we go:

Gw defend myself bahwa gw udah berusaha untuk punya partner dengan another chinese girl untuk project2 CS-nya, but it didn't turn out really well. We didn't communicate pretty well (language barrier, I guess), and she's not helping that much coz I ended up doing everything by myself, so I decided that we might go on our way, in other word, we're not partner anymore. Gw juga defend myself bahwa gw sebenarnya pengen banget untuk punya partner karena ngerjain project-project CS sendirian itu benar-benar makan setengah hidup gw di semester ini. And he told me: bahwa dia sepenuhnya sadar bahwa bagi kita asian people, yes, he's an asian, mau semuanya serba efisiensi, kita mau semuanya serba cepat selesai pekerjaan, dengan hasil yang bagus juga, meskipun itu artinya, kita musti kerja sendirian, menanggung beban sendirian. Well, itu bakalan nggak berguna sama sekali kalau kita seorang CS major atopun EE major (yes, TA gw itu juga seorang CS and EE major, what a coincidence!), karena di masa depan, kalo kita udah kerja, semua project, semua kerjaan adalah kerjaan team, adalah kerjaan bersama, kita nggak bakalan kerja sendirian, mencoba memecahkan code sendirian, akhirnya jadi gila sendirian. Dan itulah kenapa, di kelas ini, kita (red. para instructor CS, profesor, TA) coba kasih semua pekerjaan dalam bentuk team, kita ada team lab yang diganti-ganti terus, kita ada pair-programming team, karena itu semua berguna untuk melatih kerja team, karena itu semua berguna bagi kita untuk belajar yang namanya process. Gw ingat dulu banget bahwa gw pernah complain dengan TA gw itu kenapa kita musti ganti2 partner untuk lab, padahal waktu itu udah settle banget, si Chris pintar, dan kita pun a really good team. And he answered, "That's the reason why we change your partner. It could be that sometimes in the future, you're not gonna have that Chris who happen to be smart and is really "cocok" with you. It could be sometimes in the future, that you have to face other people whom you don't like, yet, you have to work with them." And I said just to myself: "Yeah!". Jawaban TA gw benar-benar masuk telinga kiri, keluar telinga kanan, alias, gw sama sekali nggak mendengarkan, dan menganggap angin lalu. Now,I just realize that It was such a powerful advice!

Yang gw perhatiin benar-benar kemudian harinya dan yang TA gw juga bilangin ke gw adalah: Why bule bener-bener lama kalo misalnya ngerjain project adalah karena mereka bener-bener belajar proses. If you paired up with bule, you're really gonna learn process. Karena bule bener-bener mau tahu process for every single thing itu kaya gimana, mereka nggak mau kerjaan asal jadi dan cepet kalo mereka sendiri nggak mudeng. Sedangkan gw sadar banget, bahwa, kalo gw kerja sendiri, semuanya serba cepet, because me myself will learn that thing only for myself, I don't have to wait for them, or they don't have to wait for me to understand all of it. But, I realized, that process is also important, nggak cuman asal cepet, meskipun hasilnya sama-sama bagus.

Hahahaha,, wrapping up my second semester. And I have waste my time for almost an hour. Bwah!

Wait for the Part II, OK?!